"Suicaine Gratifaction " lyrics

 

released 1999
Capital records

 

 
It's A Wonderful Lie
 

Get up from a dream
and I look for rain
Take an amphetamine
and a crushed rat's brain
How am I feelin
Better I suppose
How am I lookin
I don't want the truth
What am I doin
I ain't in my youth
I'm past my prime
Or was that just a pose
It a wonderful lie
and I still get by on those

I've been accused of never opening up
You get too close
Then I keep my mouth shut
I'm gonna run to the wind
Where the big bad city blows
It a wonderful lie
and I still get by on those
It a wonderful lie
and I still get by on those

You can dress to the eights
You can dress to maim
It'll make you feel great
This fortune and fame
Wearing too much makeup
Not near enough clothes
It a wonderful lie
and I still get by on those
It a wonderful lie
and I still get by on those

So don't pin your hopes
Or pin your dreams
To misanthropes or guys like me
The truth is overrated
I suppose
It a wonderful lie
and I still get by on those
It a wonderful lie
and I still get by...

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Self-Defense
 

Cheekbones and hormones
Your only self-defense
Lying through dinner
And your rock and roll teeth again
You've harbored a coward
Fed him full of broth
This nocturnal sadness
Leave you pale as this tablecloth
Careful don't you spill your dinner
That would be a good defense
Then you wouldn't have to sit here
On the fence

Cheekbones and hormones
He's the accidental man
Tell you in a stage whisper
About the boy who cried benefit
As the poet drags the darkness
Within him to the light
It's only in self-defense
That they drag you out into the night
Careful don't you spill your dinner
That would be your best defense
Careful what you wish for

An idiot and a genius
Standing up to dine
Breaking manmade laws
Cause I only follow those that are divine
And only when you're chased
Do you ever run fast
And it's wrong to commit a suicide
It's only in self-defense

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Best Thing That Never Happened
 

I'm the best thing
That never happened
I'm the best thing
You never had
You're the best thing
That never happened
That never happened
It's really too bad
And I was the last thing
That you ever wanted
I'm the best thing
You never had

You were the first one
To turn me on
To turn me on fast
To turn me down flat
Cause I was the last thing
That you ever wanted
Still the best thing you never had
Now you don't know
What you're missing
You'll never know what you had
You'll never know what you're missing
Oh yeah

I was the best thing
That never happened
The best thing you never had
You want the pick of the litter
Don't go away bitter
Now I wouldn't do that
I was the last thing
That you ever wanted
The best thing
You'll never have
And I'm the best thing
That never happened
The best thing
You'll never have
The best thing
You'll never have

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Lookin' Out Forever
 

The one who loves you most
Is giving up the ghost
And taking to the stage
Like a stone on a grave
Yeah I think of her
Every once in awhile
Every once in awhile
Forever
I'm lookin' out forever now
I love you now forever now
I love you now forever now yeah
I'm lookin' out forever now
I'm lookin' out forever now
I'm lookin' out forever now yeah
I love you now forever now
I love you now forever now
I love you now forever now yeah
I'm lookin' out forever now
I love you now forever now yeah

Ain't nothing else I can say
Nothin' left to give her
Abandon the wind
I'm a bend in the river
Standing by the bank
They're calling me across
Think of me sometimes
When the river flows because
I'm lookin' out forever now
I love you now forever now
I love you now forever now yeah
God I know I'm going home
God I don't belong
Taste me in his kisses
Waste me in my prime
Replace me with another
Think of me some time

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Born For Me
 

When the loneliest eyes
And the emptiest arms
Finally decide to meet
With a head in a lap
And a tongue tied in knots
Then the loneliest eyes
Try and speak
You were born for me
Beautiful and blue
I could die here with you
For a couple of nights
You could say you're my wife
You could stay
or run away if you please
The heaviest head
& The emptiest hands
You'll be safe in the light
When we kiss
When we breathe
You were born for me
Beautiful and blue
I could die here with you
You were born for me
Beautiful and blue
Stay here with you

I can't bear it
I can't share it
With anybody in my little world
I can't hide it
I'll never find it
With another girl
When we kiss
When we breathe
You were born for me
Beautiful and blue
I could die here with you
I can't bear to
Try and share you
Well, I'm the one to talk
You're the one that's free
When you forget me
Then you'll let me
Fade away...
You'll always be
Born for me
Beautiful and blue
I could die here with you
You were born for me
Beautiful and blue
I could die here with you

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Final Hurrah
 

All of the sun
That New York will allow
Is taking one last bow
& Left
Let's throw this night
To the fuckin' wind
Don't ever want to hear
These words again
If only we had
I wish we did
You're my latest last chance
My final hurrah
This day went so fast
I barely even saw you
Clap your hands
And stamp your skinny wrists
Cross me off your list
In the sand
And throw this night
To the fuckin' wind
I don't ever want to hear
These words again
If only we had
I wish we did
You're my latest last chance
My final hurrah
This day went so fast
I barely even saw you writhe
You barely even saw me cry
I barely even saw you
You're my latest last chance
My final hurrah
This day went so fast
My final hurrah
In your black satin pants
My final hurrah
My final hurrah
My final hurrah
My final hurrah

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Tears Rolling Up Our Sleeves
 

People swear opposites attract
I don't care about that
Is it fiction or fact
We're identically sad
We're got tears rolling up our sleeves
Nobody here's putting us at ease
Is it fiction or fact
We're identically sad Never a moon on water shone
You do here
We're got tears rolling up our sleeves
We're got tears rolling up our sleeves
Pregnant for minutes
And bored for hours
not soon enough
He'll be ours
Is it fiction or fact
We're identically sad
To be with him for just one night
Would you throw away
Your whole damn life
Never a moon on waterworks
Just you and me
We're got tears rolling up our sleeves

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Fugitive Kind
 

I've been bought
It's quite a scandal
Just got out alive
I gave 'em all
That they could handle
Then I took a dive
So take a chair
And make it snappy
Tryin' to lose these jerks
Say a prayer and make it simple
It's the only kind that works
On the outskirts
Of the sundown
I feel like Billy the Kid
Don't know where
I'll go or run now
Like I ever did
Is this where I belong
Hurry up, quick
And you can come along
We ain't got time for you
To grab your stuff
What's flowing through our veins
Is good enough
I'm the fugitive kind
You better make up your mind
I can't wait
You can run-run-run-run away with me
But never from your fate
You can run-run-run-run away with me
But never from your fate

I've got strange and grandiose ideas
I never know or care
What day it is
We can write down our dreams
& Hide 'em under the bed
And walk down the street
With light bulbs on our head
I'm the fugitive kind
You better make up your mind
I can't wait
You can run-run-run-run away with me
But never from your fate
You can run-run-run-run away with me
But never from your fate

I stood alone on that stage
Just like a stone on a grave
You could be my lover
I'd make you laugh
Or just another epitaph
I'm a bad idea whose time has come
And I'll never forget
Where I started from
I'm the fugitive kind
You better make up your mind
I can't wait
You can run-run-run-run away with me
But never from your fate
You can run-run-run-run away with me
But never from your fate
You can run-run-run-run away with me
But never from your fate

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Sunrise Always Listens
 

Talking to myself again
My sentences ramble at great length
And I believe I have just started
To bore the only guy who's listening
And the sunset
And the lampshade
And the TV and the bed
But the sunrise always listens
The sunrise always listens
Sometimes she even finishes
My sentences
And I don't need a skywriter
To make graffiti in your sky
Your world is a balloon to me
I'll poke a hole
And see what's inside
I bored a sunset
And a lampshade
And a TV then a bed
But a sunrise always listens
Yes sometimes she'll even finish
My sentences

Like I want her (back) yeah
And she starts to laugh
And throws back her golden head
Talking to myself again
My sentences ramble my sentiment
I believe I've started
To go out of my head
And there's no one here
To hear just what I've said
But the sunrise always listens
Yeah the sunrise always listens
Yeah the sunrise even finishes
My sentences
Yeah the sunrise always listens

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Whatever Makes You Happy
 

Whatever makes you happy
Is exactly what you will wear
I wouldn't dream of changing you
For a minute or in a year
Whatever makes you happy
Is exactly how you will stay
Whatever makes you happy is okay
Whatever makes you happy
Is the one thing you have found
You're starving for affection
I guess sex just lets you down
Whatever made you turn away
It's a shame it made you wait
You make me nervous
You make me jealous
You make me wonder when you lie
You make me want to vomit
And I promise
I want you 'til the day I die
Whatever makes you famous
Ain't contagious
Please don't run
You're falling down a stairwell
Calling farewell anyone
Whatever makes you lonesome
It's the same that sets you free
Now whatever makes you happy
I'm pretty sure isn't me
Whatever makes you happy baby
I could make you happy baby

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Actor In The Street
 

Who here in the crew
Was he talking to
He was laughing and smoking
Who here in the crew
Was he talking to
What words were spoken
I shot an actor at the street
It was my debut at directing
We nailed him in the hands and feet
Last seen he was in his trailer resting
Who here in the crew
Was he talking to
What was he saying
Who here in the crew
Was spoken to
Was he smoking and laughing
I shot an actor in the street
Mmm, mmmm, mmmmm
I shot an actor in the street
Last seen he was in his trailer resting
I need a retake on that scene
Keep looking for him
I need his blessing

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Bookmark
 

Father left
You were crushed
Like the petals of a flower
Between the pages of a novel
A long forgotten bookmark
The end of a sad chapter
When he left her she read no more
And so left all trust
Of any man that wants you
To dress in black plastic
Or sing with your eyes only
As though you were autistic
Whisper diamonds and insolence
Enter misadventure
Neither tawdry or resplendent
In clothes that hide your figure
She was daddy's little sparrow
He was a dirty picture window
Mister Inappropriate
Who washes his hands after
He thinks someone is watching
Too restless for education
Craves only entertainment
And to this day
There is no one you trust
Father left your mom
They say you were crushed
Like the petals of a flower
Between pages of a novel
A long forgotten bookmark

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